Him

It might have been soon,

But it sure felt like love

You held space for me

You lifted me up.

I looked at you,

And immediately knew,

That I could do this life with you.

But life, once again, had tested my pain.

And resurfaced all the suppressed years of shame.

My overbearing love, that was for sure.

Sometimes my smother would push close your door.

I needed to feel , that trust was real.

That you still held my heart, when we were apart.

At times you may have felt , that I wanted too much,

But the thing I loved most, was to feel your soft touch.

For those moments together, i truly felt your care.

But in some of my moments, I couldn't feel you there...

I want to grow,

reap the benefits I sow.

And I struggle with the idea of letting you go.